Broken Trust Does Not Have To Be Forever

"My new school was okay. My math teacher favored me. He took a liking to me, began giving me his lunches. His sandwiches were filled with meat as opposed to mine, which were usually peanut butter and jelly. It was never anything I liked. I grew suspicious of his motives because it was happening too often. After awhile I took the sandwich out of courtesy and respect for him as an adult. His generosity caused me to be guarded. One evening the Professor showed up at Grandma Ethel’s wanting to take me to some school event. I protested but Grandma Ethel made me go.

"The Voice: “That was the night you found yourself walking down the road with your underpants in your hand, sobbing that she will not believe you. She’ll think you were the cause of it.”

"That was all I remembered from that night."

(an excerpt from my book: There The Midst The Mysterious Exposed)

I have had many adults disappoint me, especially the ones I expected to protect, who instead exploited. At one point in my life I was filled with hate, anger and bitterness.

The man died when I was a teenager. I never saw him again. For years I mistrusted the motive behind gifts.

Mistrust was good at times and other times I cheated other people who were good people out of blessing me.

There is no way to retrain yourself to trust a person who has violated that trust. That requires a higher self, a higher consciousness.

For me that came as a spiritual encounter that bathe me in so much love that I no longer felt the need to be angry, bitter, hateful. As a matter of fact I felt sorry for my perpetrator. Yes, I pitied him in his state, and to think, he might have died in that condition.

Those who do things to you to change the course of your life will control you the rest of your life if you keep holding on to anger, bitterness, hate.

As much as we would like to punish them and think we are, we are not. Chances are what they did to you has been disregarded, maybe even forgotten.

We do reap what we sow. Vengeance is not ours, that is, if we are spiritual people. The Lord says it is his.

I spent 30 years wasting thoughts and being tormented by my past perpetrators, but now I have chosen to be free, to Let Go and Let God.

Since I have done that it has opened up a whole new world for me. I feel like a kid in a candy store, trying to take in all the wonderful things that are happening in my life.

Let it Go and FEEL the JOY!

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